I'm so tired :( This whole experience is coming to an end. In one week, I will be finished with student teaching. So weird... It's beginning to catch up with me though. It's only Wednesday and I've been hoping for Friday since yesterday! I seriously considered going to bed at 6:30 tonight. I didn't end up doing it but I wanted to. It will be an early night tonight though, I hope.
Today was the start of TCAP. For those who don't know, that means that every teacher, principal, secretary, etc... got no sleep last night. This is the state test that every 3rd-8th grader takes. High school may take it too but I think their dates are different. This also means that our building was completely silent from 8:20-11:35 this morning. The Kindergarten, 1st, and 2nd grade walked outside in silence if we had to go somewhere. The lunchroom was quiet. Doors were closed everywhere. P.E was quiet with the doors closed. It was kind of eerie to tell you the truth. Thankfully we are on the other side of the building far away from where testing was going on, but you better believe our kiddos didn't make a peep in the hall or outside. I thought I was being harsh by threatening to move their card to yellow if they made a sound. At lunch I found out the other teachers had threatened to move cards straight to red. My kids had it easy haha. I did have to move 2 though. Guess I wasn't scary enough :) I'll try again tomorrow. This will be the way things are for several more days. On Tuesday, things will go back to normal. So if you think about, please keep the kids at my school taking the test in your prayers. This is a big deal test and their scores have a huge impact on the school as well as the students. If you're really curious and want to know more, you can check it out here: http://www.tn.gov/education/assessment/achievement.shtml
On a personal note, I'm super tired this week and everything that goes along with that. I've been getting really agitated with little things and dreading the afternoons. If I felt like this the whole placement, I would have been miserable. I'm trying to remember this is my next to last week but I'm so tired that I just want to be done... I think emotional stress is contributing to this as well. If you haven't heard, I have to move by June 1. I'll also be in Spartanburg the last week of May. So I guess I really have to move by mid-May. That's soon. I also have to find a summer nannying job that will help pay rent since teachers don't get paid until August. On that note, I also have to get a teaching job. Oh goodness, when you lay it all out there, there's a lot going on. That also means a lot will be happening this summer. I'm not the best at dealing with change. This summer will be nothing but change. Bring it on. I'm ready for it.
I'm working this week on really truly handing everything over to God and letting Him deal with it. Honestly, I don't want to deal with it so I'm glad He's there to take it. I know that He has a plan and knows where I'll live, how I'll pay for it, and where I'll teach in the fall. Hopefully I can be patient enough that He'll reveal it soon :) Prayers for all of these situations would also be greatly appreciated. Thank you for all of your prayers and support!
See how time flies! It's the end of Thursday, and tomorrow is Friday! The week is done.
ReplyDeleteLots and lots of stuff is going to happen in the next few weeks! Relax, take a deep breath, and be excited about what God is going to do with you.
It's much better than stressing over things you cannot control anyway!
Dad